i've been doing alright with this thing, for the most part. or rather, i'm fine until i talk with someone my age whose own mother died of cancer. then i'm not fine. i really don't think i will be able to handle it if my mom doesn't make it out of this okay. i really don't think i will be able to be one of those people who can look back four years later and be able to see the good in it.
i am so angry and feel such loss of control. this whole thing is so unreal to me. fuck. my mom is the most important person in my life. she is my best friend, my confidant, my role model, the woman who made me who i am and the woman i can only hope to be like one day. if i lost her i would just be floating around in the world. cancer is such a HEARTLESS BITCH.
why can't i handle this with some dignity like my mom does?
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my friend i love you so much. i don't even know where to start, or what to say... Only because there is nothing to say, nothing will help.
But know how loved you are, and how much you will be loved in four years.
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